Anorexia

by Jazzalyn
(Ohio)

I'm 12 and I have been suffering from anorexia since the 6th grade. My lowest weight was 80 pounds, and I'm 5 foot. I'm short and have no feelings or motivation to gain weight. My confidence is always low.

I always feel tired and bruise really fast. My arms are really thin and my ribs spine collar bone and hip bones all stick out extremely far. I have been getting better.

I went from 83 pounds to 88 in like the past month. I'm really proud of my progress. I went from never eating breakfast or lunch and I tiny portion of dinner. To eating a healthy breakfast and a nice clean dinner. I workout at least 5 times a week and I tell myself I can get better.

I was 97 pounds at the beginning of 6th grade. But I had a confidence drop when I met a guy I really liked. I always felt like I wasn't good enough for him. And that he was never going to like me unless I was the skinniest I could possibly be. All the girls in my grade were really skinny and they told me I was too. But my weight told me otherwise.

My hair started to thin out a little and my body showed a lot of my veins. I used to cut myself all the time. Because I hated my family and felt like I was never going to be good enough for anyone. My parents didn't understand me and never let me out. They don't let me date and I literally have no friends.

The worst time I cut was all over my waist and butt. I did it in places no one would see it. I cut with a pencil blade and it was really bad. And deep. Thought my anorexia I have had weight drops and gains. But I hated myself for not being able to get into the 70s.

I hated looking in the mirror and just seeing everything wrong about myself. But I fixed it. I haven't starved in a long time. And I feel a lot better. I have good friends to talk to and I still have a boyfriend. He cares a lot about me and has been really supportive. He talked me out of anorexia. And made me feel like I'm really important to him.

I hope this shows that you can overcome anorexia. And that starving your body isn't something you should do.