Because he lives..I can face tomorrow

by Simi
(London, UK)

Wow..you are so confident, you are always full of energy and zeal, I wish I was like you..Be careful what you wish for, looks can be deceiving was how I would respond to those who think they know me. I walked around with a mask on my face all my life, it became who I was. It was easy to pretend to be living in the life I wish I had than to face the harsh realities of my own life.

The truth is I hated life in general, death was the holiday resort I desired for a long time although I never plucked up the courage to take that flight maybe it was the fear of God or the people I will leave behind.

My life in 30 secs: excelled academically, surrounded by friends, career focused, loving family..so what is wrong with your life you ask? Good question I wonder at times myself how I became a victim of the ravaging eating disorder, full of anger, lies, stealing, hatred for men, disgusted by own body, alone and depressed AND did I mention I am a christian as well?

There is always more to one's story and a past behind everyone, the word of God says: "Through Christ I am made whole, behold old things have passed away..." God has given me the reason to keep going each day which turns to weeks, months etc. I am able to face my challenges knowing the one who created me, can and will mould me back to shape.

I would to encourage us all to hold onto God and do not be moved by your circumstances, life will certainly bring difficulties one after another..the ones who survive through are not the toughest or bravest but those that wait upon on the lord. He will NEVER leave you nor forsake you. I am on the road to recovery, living each day with a purpose and learning to love for this is the greatest commandment of all..