CARRY ME

by kristiana
(TURLOCK CA)

Sometimes all i can do is cry because the lord knows i try and i try and i try

At times i no longer want to fight; i have no desire to continue doing right
How much can one bear, before they break?
How much can one shake before they become overwhelmed with an outrageous pain?
A constant pain that shoots from your head to your toe
A pain that is never ending, that you may try to hide, but yet it continues to show.

See I'm not afraid to express how i feel
Better yet to say I?m hurt, to say that life?s hard and at times i want to give up
I?m not afraid even though I?m all alone
I?m not afraid because his love never fails me.
I?m in love with a God who will never forsake nor leave me
see I?m surrounded by a body of people who call themselves "my family"," my friends"
Who are quick to say i love you, who are quick to say I?ll be there until the end.
But at the end i search to find that real friend, that mother, that brother, that sister, and the list goes on
But all I find is God.

Now they wonder why my hurt is so ice cold
People are so full of judgment that they can't see my heart was once burning with fire
But all that consisted of this world turned on me
My fire was put out
My heart beat was stopped,
Stopped at the sound of hatred jealousy and judgment piercing my heart

See my God found me at a place where i couldn't see recovery
And from there i knew i would never be the same.
And again he finds me at a place where i can?t see pass the heartache and pain
But i know my God delivered me before and he?ll do it again

Lord my heart lies in your hands
And even though i can?t see clearly with you i can withstand
All the fiery darts of hell may shoot my way,
But i rejoice in you Lord because this too will pass a way