Dont Start, Dont Try

by Alyssa
(Jessup, MD)

I wanna see you go through I went through

Im tired of always feeling so blue
You gotta see what I saw
You gotta see why I have so many flaws
The pain isn't something to laugh at
What kind of person would do that?
Someone who is messed up inside
It caused me to never feel the pride
Thats I ended the addiction
It always feels like I got a restriction
Cant be like I was in the past
My life changed so fast

The tears I cried
It took me all the energy to take the stride
To give up on what I loved
My addiction was my beloved
It was sick
It was something that was hard to kick
The battle I almost lost
My life it almost cost
The scars I have to live with for the rest of my life
The scars that was always caused by the knife
My security blanket is no longer mine
I haven't decided if I feel fine
I've tried to explain myself
But they only though of themself

My life has changed so much
My past I try to clutch
To hold on
But all hope is gone
I can't save the other ones
The war, I still havent won
I cant decided how they will end up
Cant see their life close up
Can only tell them that they might lose the war
Their sanity might end up on the floor
They are the only one that they can save
To fight the only thing they crave

The knife will end it all
They will go from walk to crawl
The pain inside will make itself known
The thought of it will chill you to the bone
It will always feel like your drowning
The minutes until the end you will always be counting
Look up when you still can
Or you will always crave for it to end

The pain isn't worth it
The light in your heart will never be lit
The scars will take over your life
All you will be able to think about is the knife
Take it from someone who knows
Cutting blows