FEEL ALL ALONE LIKE I HAVE NO ONE SO I CUT.

Hey i wanna share my story,

I started cutting when i started grade 8 in the first term
everyone had been doing it since they say "it takes the pain away"

i cut me arms, i didn't expect it to leave a scar but it left one and i hate it. i just reminds me why i did it.
later on things started turning my walls started falling down and i have been talking to the school Counselor and then it become the holidays so i had no one to talk to about what was going on...
this guy and me had a thing and i told him i just wanted to be friends and then he said he didnt want me in his life so i told him he was my everything and stuff and then the next day the guy who i have been crushing on for awhile since i told the other guy i wanted to be friends and yeah so the guy asked me out and i said yes to him then the other guy hates me now and doesnt want me in his life i have be fighting for him for ages now he doesnt get how much he means to me and he told me to forget him so i said i can never forget you now his like whys that and i said ill show you and the next day we met up to sort stuff out and i showed him why i can never forget him cause i carved his name in my leg. and now i lost him and i dont know what to do i have a boyfriend which means everything to me but the other guy means alot to me too what should i do ?

thats what my life is about just cutting my self i just want to die. i hate life now i feel like im all alone. even though im not
and now i have stopped eating its getting that bad