finding god for myself

by Blaire-christie
(New Zealand)

i was born into a loving christian family, and was brought up to ;love god and be a christian. My parents were always stricter than most parents.

I live in a small in new zealand named waimate. we have 4ooo thousand people so it is very safe but they still wouldnt let me walk in the dark or dye my hair this year they just let me get my ears pierced.

I started to go on the bad side i started swearing, lying, cheating, i bunk of school. I got endless detentions and got sent to the deans office a lot.

I was thinking of having sex with the first guy who asked because i had always been the fat girl and still was but i thought the guy who i would give it to would love me, but of course he wouldnt. All my friends were christians so i went out and got so not christian friends. this was not a good idear. they got me to get drunk and they got me to be a girl who hooks up with lots of guys. But one day one of my friends got pregnant and she was geting an abortion and No i finally snapped! i was not got to let her kill that baby because it is sooo wrong. My friend was 14 then and it was early this year we are not friends any more she killed that baby. One day i was at church because i had to be and the pastor read out 1 peter 3:3-4 and they really spoke to me.

I am on the road to being a better christian i only have one none christain friend now because the other ditched me when they found out i was a christain again but i managed to convert one to be a christain and the others close now and the christain friends are still there for me they never left neither did god.
And if i did not make it clear I Have Never Had sex and i am 14 yrs old