God's amazing, unfailing love

I am currently a senior in high school. I have been raised in a christian home, and ive went to the same church since before I was even born. I have been taught the right way to live, so I just go to show that ANYONE can mess up. No one is above falling. I "got saved" on December 8,2008. When i was in the 8th grade I got into things I shouldnt have. I was friends with the wrong people, and I really just didnt care about anything at the time except the guy I was dating. We have been really close since the 5th grade. He lives right beside me, weve basically been through everything together. I guess this is where it really all started. We dated at the end of 8th grade, and most of 9th. We begin to struggle with sex. When youre young, things like this are easy to fall into, especially if you arent where you need to be with God. We both knew it was wrong, and we tried and tried to stop. Eventually, we had to break up because his mom found out. This was horrible. i was only 14 years old at the time, but that didnt change how i felt. I prayed and asked God for forgivness..but after a few months just went right back to the same things. Over and over again. As time went on, of course he started dating other people. We were still close and still had feelings for eachother but just couldnt be together. It caused a lot of fights between us. Now, as seniors, hes dating someone..im not. I havemt dated anyone since him. we have struggled with sex all through highschool. On March

22, 2010 I truly got saved. I know that God changed me on that day and i know that He changed me forever. But even after this, I drifted so far away from Him and just went right back to things I had done before. I have struggled with this every single day for 3 years. It has been really hard for me to accept that he has a girlfriend. I wanted things the way I wanted them. I never thought about Gods plan. But He has shown me that it doesnt matter how many times i messed up. He forgave me every single time and i didnt not deserve that. It's tough, trusting that God knows what Hes doing and that He has a perfect plan for our lives..especially as girls because we really like to be in complete control. I truly believe with all my heart that God wants to use me, and that my story will help others. Sex is something that many teenage girla atruggle with. Many of them dont know the truth about it. Satan decieved me for a really long time and made me think it was something that its really not. He makes sin look so good and it seems so right, but in the end he gets to laugh at us when we fall. Giving God my entire life and trusting Him with it was the est decision I ever made. And I am often reminded of Jeremiah 29:11. God has everything under control in our lives.. all we have to do is trust Him. I hope that somehow God will use my story to help someone else. I am so blessed, and so thankful for what He has done in my life.