God's beauty

Everyone has struggles in their lives. Everyone also has stress but we all deal with them differently.

I used to deal with stress healthily. I was a sports addict. I ran, played basketball, cheered, danced, played soccer, and played softball. I was busy! I loved participating in physical activity. It was exhilarating.
I have always been sick. Always on medicine. This medicine kept me skinny as a rail! I was tiny. And of courrse physical activity kept me even smaller. I had not an ounce of fat on my body.
Well i was cured. No longer needed medicine. And I started gaining weight. I didn't mind though because I started to look normal!
But then i wiped out my knee playing basketball freshman year of Highschool. I couldn't play sports anymore and this caused me to gain weight like crazy! I started having self esteem issues. I thought I was fat even though I was wearing a size 4 from American Eagle.
next thing I knew, I had an eating disorder. It became my best friend. It was like a game... How much weight could I lose? well I lost like 30 pounds in a little over 2 months. That is very unhealthy! Because I did get back to physical activity. So not only was i not eating, I also had an exercise addiction. My best friends noticed I was changing mentally. They told my parents and the schoool counselor but they didn't do anything at first. I didn't get help until I passed out at practice one day. Now I am in counseling. I can't say I have overcome my disorder just because I still have urge to do it sometimes. You never fully recover... But I am living a normal life again. I am 5 ft 9 in and wearing a size 4 from American Eagle. I am a model and many of my friends from my modeling agency have eating disorders. I know I am perfect, however. I realize how beautiful I am and that I am god's beautiful creation! (: