God's Will.....

by Billie Newman
(Skiatook, Oklahoma)

So of course i am a teen that grew up

in a small town where partying and hooking up
were the two things to do. So right when i got
into the 9th grade i lost all my innocence.

It is so crazy how fast temptation can get you.
I went from a innocent girl with good grades
and a wonderful life in head of me. Then BAM
things changed. I went to a party and drank.
The more parties i went to the more God was
taking away from me. My grade went from good to failing. All i wanted to do is be that cool
girl that partied with all the juniors and seniors
then drinking lead to letting a boy take control
of my body.

I thought it was a cool thing i was suppose to do but deep down inside i knew it wasn't cool at all so i got depressed started cutting myself. I always thought suicide would be the way out of things but i never intended to do that i just wanted to hurt myself physically like i was hurt emotionally. I had a friend that was a daughter of a preacher and every time we went out and partied i would tell her Katie i want to change, i want to get closer to God and she would laugh
at me like it was some joke. That was not something i thought a best friend or a daughter of a preacher would say.

I was the only one out of my so called friends that wanted to change my life or felt guilty for all the bad choices i was make. I was such a confused girl.

I was going to church and for the longest time i was the oldest one in there so i had no one to look up to or help me. i just kept falling and
all my joys and blessings were going away. I wasn't doing God's will or what i am called to do.
I wasn't trying to spread the gospel. I wasn't
doing my part. i just kept going wrong.

I prayed for hours and hours for angles to help me. I got baptized then the next day a friend from a different town that was a Christian kid
is BAM randomly at my church, then BAM that
Wednesday 4 more of my random friends show up at
my church, i started hanging out with them
to keep myself out of trouble and i do believe
these 5 boys are my angels. They are a blessing
in my life. i am so thankful for them. i was getting so bad into stuff then they pulled me out of it.

i have been doing God's will and He is blessing me
for it. i thank the Lord for every little thing.
i prove to my old friends that a person can change
for the good and it is not stupid to be a follower
of Jesus the son of God. I push right through temptation to drink, to do drugs, to let boys take control over me. I'm dating one of my "angels" - he is the worship leader at my church
we are not sexually active, we are waiting.

i do not have to impress him he likes me for who i am. he is a blessing to because he has pulled me through so much.

"Thank you lord, you are truly amazing."
Just remember our Savior is the way to go.
get close to him and hold on to him he will bless you. The Lord works in many different ways and he can give just as much as he can take away.

Just keep your head up, never let anyone pull
you down with their own temptation, Press On
the Lord is always with you. Bless him, He is amazing.


If you do God's will He will bring you blessings.