Hard life

by catejo
(baldwin ks north america)

the crossroads im at

O.K I don't want anyone to feel sorry, but i do want help. As far back as i can remember, my dad would hit me as a punishment. At first it was just his hand then it was a belt, then a ruler, then a leather horse whip. Then i found out it was my mom that told him some of the times. It was over stupid stuff like not using my free electric tooth brush or asking my brother to do some thing for me. So i talked to the school counsler and she told the SRS. My mom took me to the trailer out side our houses and started crying saying i could have ruined her job because any one could have picked up the phone. It was all about her. We went to counseling christian style and that didn't really help. she said that i was trying to get attention by misbehaving. And all throughout this thing I got blamed. At night i would plead with him ask him to end the pain and misery. We are now on a shaky truse the are scared of me. But my family hates me. JUst a few days ago i got a new bible that i under stand and I love it. I stiil dont understand why god did this to me but someday i will. Thanks for listening you have no idea how good it feels to tell some one else about my problems