Heartache

by Heather
(Vidalia ga)

My story ....I was a firm follower of Christ and my life was centered around him but I was homeschooled which meant I was shelter and blinded from experiences of other girls.my senior year at a Christian school was interesting. I gave my heart away to easily and to too many people . I was a bad person I'd dump guys constantly then date their friends I was a horrible person. I guess I just was trying to feel loved my emptiness I thought could be replaced by guys attention which I tried get constantly. This never fulfilled me but now I have a boyfriend who is helping me see things through different eyes and with his help I'm becoming closer to GOD again and slowly trying to fix my need to be perfect outwardly. I've been dealing with the need to be thin everyone tells me I am but I don't ever see it I starve myself and take weight loss pills when my boyfriend found this out he confronted me which scared me but I know he's just trying to protect me . I don't quite agree that something's wrong with me but I'm trying to change for the better which can only be done with the help love and support of our heavenly father. LOVE, HEATHER