How the bad things have helped me in the end

by Leah
(Mississippi)

Hi i'm Leah. I'm 14 years old. I have been anoxeric and bulimic. I'm homeschool because my big sister had problems in school. Somebody tried to kill her and after she left she had bulimia really bad. While my parents were helping her they didn't take the time to see the pain I was in. I never been mad about it. I was so happy when she recovered it gave me some of my strength . I fought my problems for about three to four years. I started to realize that i didn't have to be perfect and I started finding my way. This past year I found out that my best friend started cutting and doing drugs. I wasn't excepted in my youth group because I'm shy. The girls that were suppose to me my friends almost every bad word I can think of. Last summer i surrendered to the ministry and I wanted to do something for the Lord I just had no idea what yet. A few days ago my big sister and one of my "friends" made up a song telling me that I was ugly She actually told somebody that she had to fix me right in front of me . I went to my dad feeling hurt, alone and not good enough. He told that it didn't matter what people said that it wasn't important. What was important was that I'm made me the way I'm am for a reason and and God loves me just the way I am. That night I found this website and it keeps giving me the strength I need not to go back. To this day nobody knows that i was anoxeric . I never thought about how hurtful one person can be until it hit me. My life seems to be somewhat back on track now. I'm healthy and a little bit happier than I've been. Some days are better than others but I always try to remember this verse."I praise you for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it well." Psalm 139:14 Because of every thing that has happened to me I now know what God wants me to do. I thank ya'll for reading.