I am honestly scared.

by Marlene
(United States)

It all started when I realized losing a few pounds finally got me the compliments I've always wanted from my mother and friends. Little did I know that I would become obsessed and mentally scarred for life. My mom over the past few years has gotten very sick. She is now relying on alcohol to ease her pain. I have lost my best friend... And i realized i back obsessed with my weight because it was the only thing i could control in my life. Well i lost too much weight. I lost my period and energy... and had no idea that i was depressed, very depressed. My friends kept trying to intervent with me about my weight but to be honest I thought they were all "fat" and didnt know what they were talking about. Now, I am a lot happier and have regained my period and regained my weight. However, i hate my weight. I never knew i could hate something so much. I would do just about anything to be skinny again. I am scared i will never be happy again about my weight. I am scared i will never be skinny again. I am scared people think im fat. But mainly i am scared my mom thinks im fat. Because i know she does.

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Our Bodies are a Temple
by: Alison

The good news is that you CAN be healthy, happy, whole, and at YOUR perfect weight. Not being skinny and not starving does not automatically mean you will be FAT. The lie is that there are two extremes: skinny, sickly, depressed, unhappy or FAT, depressed, unhappy. Nothing could be further from the truth!!!

The truth is that our body's are a temple of God's Holy Spirit. There are certain ways that a temple is to be cared for so that it can serve it's purpose. If do read those portions of scripture, you will see that they very carefully, respectfully built the temple, furnishing it and treating it exactly how God commanded. There are certain ways we are supposed to treat our bodies so that God can accomplish His purposes in and through us. Search the scriptures to see what God tells us about our relationship with ourselves and our bodies. I'd love to be of help if you have any questions.

Sincerely,

Alison
The Love of God
by: Anonymous

I think You are feel neglected, helpless and hopeless and it is obvious that you love your mother very much that it seems that you are grieving because of the loss with the relationship with your mother. You expected a better relationship with your mother and the sickness and drinking has brought pain. Dissapointment has brought depression. I understand how you feel. When I am depressed I felt so alone, empty and unloved, as if no one cares, and I used food as comfort. Food also became my enemy because it did not fill my emptiness and I did not want to see myself in the mirror. But I will tell you that the Lord Jesus Christ can encourage you and save you. I believe that the only Hope we have is the Lord. This world is full of so much pain and our expectations get dashed,but what do we do then. The wolrd will always be tough, things will sometimes go wrong, but with the help of the Lord Jesus Christ, you can walk through each circumstance. The Lord Jesus Christ not only saves but He also Loves unconditionally. I pray the Lord help you and see you through your pain.

God Bless you
stay strong... people love you
by: Anonymous

Life gets tough sometimes,,, and i have had 3 friends go thru eating disorders. I will pray for you. Because i know that it is not easy but it will be okay in the end. stay strong and keep yourself together! talk to someone get help!!! life is meant to live your beautiful no matter what anyone thinks. enjoy your life.

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