I grew up in church..

by Christiana
(MO, USA)

i cannot remember never going to church.. but as i got older i didnt feel close to God.. i tried to pray and read my bible but it felt like i was talking to a brick wall. when i turned 14 i discovered boys and that you got attention if you dressed a certain way. and eventually i got what i was looking for.. or so i thought. i started dating behind my parents back (the guy was 17) and making out and eventually it got to the point where he wanted to go farther with our relationship and i knew i wasnt ready.. but the next day my parents found out about my relationship with this guy and put me on lockdown (in my room with no phone,tv,music..) i looked around my room for something to do and i saw my dads bible.. i dont know how it got there but there it was.. so i picked it up and opened to a random page (or in gods mind the one he wanted me to). it was the story of jesus and the woman at the well. as i read the tender love he showed this woman, even though she was sinning, hit me hard. i realized that i was like that woman. lost, looking for gods love in a man. and that it would never work.. so the next day i went to church with my family and i felt the most amazing peace and joy pour over me and i listened to the pastor talk about the same thing i had read that night. even though i was still in deep trouble with my parents, i knew that it would all work out in the end and that now i had found god again..