I need you

I REALIZE THAT I NEED YOU BUT YET I STILL HOLD BACK AND DON'T LET YOU IN

YOU SEND ME SIGNS SPEAK TO ME BUT I ACT AS IF I DONT NO WHERE TO BEGIN
WHY DO I REFUSE YOUR LOVE WHEN YOUR LOVE IS ALL I NEED
WHY DO I GO DOWN THAT ROAD WHEN THATS NOT WHERE YOU LEAD
I COULD BE SO MUCH MORE BUT YET I HOLD BACK
I GIVE YOU MOST OF MY LIFE BUT NOT ENOUGH THAT WHERE I FALL OFF TRACK
SEE YOU PAINTED THAT PICTURE REVEALING TO ME YOUR PLANS
YOU SHOWED ME HOW TO OVERCOME AND HOW I CAN STAND
YOU SHOWED ME HOW I REACH THOSE MANY SOULS
YOU SHOWED ME IM CAPABLE OF MEETING MANY SPIRITUAL GOALS
YOU SEE THE BEST IN ME
AND THE SAD THING IS I NO WHAT YOU SEE
BUT YET AND STILL I HOLD BACK
AND FALL OFF TRACK
WHY DO I RUN FROM YOUR PLANS WHEN ALL YOU WANT IS THE BEST
AND YOU CAN PUT MY HEAVY AND TROUBLED HEART TO REST
SEE I TRUST YOU BUT STILL I LEAVE A GAP BETWEEN US
ITS ALL MY FAULT I CAN CONFESS
BUT HOW DO I LET YOU IN WHEN IM SCARED TO HAVE THE BEST
WHEN IVE BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH I AVOID SUCCESS
HOW DO I LET YOU IN WHEN IM SCARED OF BEING HURT AGAIN
EVEN THOUGH I NO ITS ALL LOVE YOU SEND
HOW DO I GET PAST REALITY AND WHAT IM USE TO
HOW DO I TELL MYSELF GOODBYE IM THREW
SEE YOUVE OPEN MY EYES UP WIDE
AND I PROMISE YOU GOD TO BRIDGE THAT GAP I STRIVE
BUT I HAVE PEOPLE IN MY EARS TELLING ME I WONT MAKE IT
PEOPLE LIEING TO ME USING AND ABUSING ME AND I HAVE NO CONTROL OVER IT
SEE WHEN I LOOK BACK AT MY LIFE ALL I SEE IS HEARTACHE AND PAIN
SAD AND MORE WEARY NIGHT ARE WHAT I LOOK FORWARD TO BECAUSE THATS ALL I GAIN
SEE I WANT TO LET YOU IN AND GIVE YOU MY ALL
YOUR NAME I ALWAYS CALL
BECAUSE OF YOU I STAND TALL
BUT THIS WORLD IS SO SMALL
AND THEYVE CAPTURED ME I FIGHT TO GET OUT BUT I JUST FALL
I BEG ON YOUR NAME TO LURE ME TO THE LIGHT
AND THIS TIME I PROMISE TO FIGHT AND CLING TO YOUR LIGHT