LIFE IN MY EYES.

by Marina
(new york city)

As I walk the miles of life, I realize wherever i go, whatever i seem to land on, my twisted upside down past is always right beside me. its like my brain is a comptuer and it keeps different files. Crazy part is, it just keeps the bad memories. All the good memories got deleted and restored into bad ones. i learn in life though, its not always good to hold on to your mistakes and no matter what you did or have done. God loves you. i know deeply inside my beating heart, that God knows im truly sorry and i love him. Yes, indeed it took some time to open the doors to my heart, to him. simply cause i lost faith. But i been working so hard and finally i can say I LOVE GOD AND GOD LOVES ME:) i feel more alive but dont get me wrong i do have my crazy days, when i just wanna pop out of my body and fly freely to the sky. leaving this messed up world behind. But some how. God always helps me see differently and see beauty, within and without.< why be stuck on your past, when that only makes your present fly right through your eyes? your present becomes "THE PAST" again and all thats left is a messed up future. and then thats when you realize it wasnt that hard to let go... cause if you dont ever let go, trust me the pain will follow you forever. life is a gift. learn to enjoy it, and learn to stop rejecting it. It wont always be there. and that's just a simple fact.