On a road towards destruction

by Alaina
(New York, United States)

My name is Alaina... I am 14 years old

I am 5 feet tall and weigh 106 pounds.... according to my doctors i am actually underweight slightly.. however I have always struggled with feeling overweight and being very conscious about my weight.

A few months ago, i decided to start working out at home and eating less and healthier.. this sounds like a good healthy idea.. It started off good but soon i started eating very little... I liked the feeling of being very hungry because I saw it as the hungrier i was the thinner, more toned id become faster. I compared my body to everyone around me... Rating myself based on others... I quickly lost weight and self esteem.

I don't think i ever really went as far as to starve myself of get a bad case of anorexia. But i did let myself feel ugly and worthless - even tho my family and friends have always been encouraging to me about my abilities and looks...

Girls, you have to understand, God doesn't want you to hate yourself or your body!! God created you with so much care and love, he loves every single inch of you, your body and your heart. I pray that you'll see the truth of God's love, and that you'll let him change you and heal you and shape you into the amazing girl he wants you to be...

Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord. Plans to prosper and not to harm you. Plans to give you a hope and a future."

God has wonderful plans for us... :)