Princess Kandace

by Kandace
(Atlanta, Georgia U.S.A)

It all started when i was in elementary school. People made fun of my forehead and at first i didn't think it was big but then i started believing it since i heard it more.

Middle school was torture. I always had a boy who liked me that would be mean to me. This particular boy who liked me would pick fun at me. I didn't know why he would be so mean and hurt my feelings but he did.

I cut my hair to make a bang so i could hide my forehead. That solved my problems for a little while. He still would make fun of me,only him. He had a friend who he hung around and his friend thought i was cute and we were cool.

I would always compare myself to the popular girls. I caught myself trying to be like other girls. Why did all the cute guys like those girls. Since I'm African American guys are attracted to girls who have big butts and loud mouths. I had none of those traits.

That 7th grade summer i went to a camp for teens with my church. Thats when the healing began. I started being my own self and i started getting more friends.

But i still had the forehead issue. 8th grade was still torture. This time it was a new guy(the other one moved to Alabama). He was kind of popular and that was kind of hurtful. He was the class clown and he would clown on me, knowing deep down he liked me. I wish i would've known he liked me. I did however manage to get the word of God known to some people at the school.

High school was the breaking point for me. I started to get acne because i wore "swoops" and bangs so much. One day in the 9th grade i was just tired. I think God troubled my spirit so much that i just put my bang back for the first time in my life and did not care. That was the best thing i could ever done.

Yeah i got comments but i trusted God and you know what, i didn't care what people had to say. Yeah there was this guy who had a joke but i could've cared less.

I've been showing my forehead for a year now and i see nothing wrong with the way God made me. I look at myself as unique, if i didn't have my forehead or my eyes then i would look like how guys expect me to look like and i don't want that.

I want to look like KANDACE, a child of God, not some video girl who has no significant value. Since my father is a King i'm royalty, i'm a princess.