Rayne, Rayne, Go Away.

by Kylie
(Lima, Ohio, USA)

Well,I became a Christian Last year around Summer time. When I went back to school I was doing great and everything until a guy came along named Rayne. He wasn't Christian. Rayne asked me out and I decided to say yes. He wasn't Christian but i always told myself that God put him into my life to change him. Well I made some pretty stupid decisions while dating him like wearing tighter, shorter clothes, etc. Well we broke up first because one of my friends said that he was cheating on me, so I broke up with him. Then I was stupid and took him back. Then someone told me he cheated on me again so I broke up with him. Then I was stupid again and took him back again. Then a couple weeks later, His best friend told me that he had Rayne stay the night one night while we were dating and Rayne was saying how he liked another girl and that he wanted to go out with another girl. Well I broke up with him of course and never took him back again. I was heartbroken for about a month or two then got over it. While i was dating him it was like i totally forgot about God, like all I cared about was Rayne. I stopped praying. Stopped reading my bible. Stopped thinking and telling about God. Its like I grew out of my Spiritual life and stuffed it in the back of my drawer. Yeah, I went to church through it all but just didn't listen. I didn't want to hear about how I should be living because i knew the truth, i was just so caught up in Rayne. After we broke up for the last time, I went through all that heartbreak, but I got over it. Then since I wasn't so caught up in Rayne, and wasn't living for God, its like i didnt have anything to live for, so then I started to realize that I needed to get a grip of my life, and start living for the Lord again! The one who gave his only son to die for my sin! So started to pray again, read my bible again, and everything just started to get better. I realized what i had done (forgetting about God) and started to live better. I just recently read something in my bible that a mentor wrote about dating that really related to my story," God wouldn't risk your heart to try to save another." So what it was saying is, God wouldn't risk my heart to try to save Raynes.