The life of that girl....

by Micha V
(Petoskey, Mi)

i've been through anorexia 2 times in my life.

6th grade.
8th grade.

6th grade-i was never really told i was fat. but when i would walk by people. i would feel as if they were talking about me constantly. like i was the fat chick that everyone made fun of. like the loser always in the corner. the girl who never had a boyfriend.

i knew i was always "bigger" than the other girls.
most of my friends were smaller than i was. so i thought that if i didnt eat and lost weight i would be normal like the other girls
i went 3 weeks until somebody asked me what was wrong. i said nothing. they said nothing more of it. that same day my grandma noticed i was a lot smaller than usual. but said nothing more.
the day after, we started learning about eating disorders. my friends all looked at me when they discovered what anorexia's symptoms were.
the next break they all came up to me and said i needed help. i only wanted you be like them
during lunch they all made sure i ate.
8th grade-the same thing happened again. but with a new twist....i was cutting along with it.

now i am 17 years old. and i am still overweight. but i realized i would rather be overweight than underweight. i haven't thought of being anorexic in years. because i am happy with who i am now. i have more friends than ever. a boyfriend. and the bestest friends that i love more than anything.

so if you have an eating disorder, and your reading this....would you want to die knowing you aren't dying the beautiful way you've been made?