theres hope

by klairissia
(canada)

I am 13 and was put into foster care since i was 2. my parents chose beer over us and the beer and their choices made them do stupid things so they died. at 2 i was shipped out to a foster home where i was having seizures. they did not know what was causing them so they did tests. I got diagnosed with juvenile diabetes. i have type 1 diabetes. i make too much sugar and it does break down the sugar cause my body does not produce the sugar. so when i turned 11 i got worse. i was in the hospital for a month and gained over a hundered pounds of water weight due to a reaction to a new insulin. it did not work so they put me on some thing else but it was hard. people laughed and called me fat. i was struggling i came home crying everyday to my foster parents. they said ignore them, they're not christians, so its been hard but i have youth leaders who are my support. anyways, i decided if i did not take my full dose i would start to lose wait because insulin some times makes you gain weight, so i would take 2 units instead of 25 and i was eating less. i still ate every meal but i cut down. people started to see changes. i would be more moody, pale and faint a lot. one day i had a diabetic seizure at school and i was put on a stretcher and was rushed to the nearest children's hospital. they talked about me not taking the right amounts of insilin. the dr. knew i had a problem. its called an insulin eating disorder. you dont eat the amount of carbs and fat you need to keep sugar kinda controlled, so my dr wants me to go to a rehab place for two weeks and an out patient program after the two weeks were over, and with my support from my youth leaders and from my church, i went to the program scared, but i knew god was there evry step of the way. i grown with my walk learning i am perfect the way god made me so my encouragement to others is that the god who made you loves you so much and he made you perfect dont let friends or satan lie to you and tell you have to change to fit in. god made you perfect, i still stuggle but i just give it to god and he helps everytime to get through it .