Trouble with self esteem

by Better Ann

I had a hard time in middle school with appearance and other things. My adoptive father always told me I was an awesome girl and beautiful too. I stil had a hard time believing that any one would want me, a girl who has damaged goods because her father raped her right under her grandmother's nose. I soon tried to get boys to like me but to no avial. Then when that didn't work I tried cutting, aneroxic (i need food!) and plenty of other things but none filled the gapping hole inside of me. I soon got to the point where my adoptive parents were ready to get rid of me but they couldn't find ahome for me so they agreed to try somehing else. When they puled me in there to tell me that I saw the look on thier faces and knew this wasn't right. I climbed in my mama's lap and cried. From then on I've done well, I still battle with PTSD (post tramatic stress disorder) but I am applling for head statt into college high school programs and I don't care what others think about me anymore.(especially boys!) All because of GOD!!!!