When I start Ignoring Invites

When I enter college. I gained 40 pounds and its just do . I suffer with an eating disorder. Binge eating disorder to b e specific. I think about food all the time and about my physical appearance. I feel so ugly and so fat. I lose my self esteem. A TOTAL ZERO. I reject friends get together. I hate them to see me this fat. I hate hearing their comments on how fat I was.


Im into fad diets. I ate evatery brand of slimming pills. I drink all those food supplement. I developed this insomia. I have no energy to go to school. MY SECURITIES KILLS ME. I just want to stay home and hide my self. Worst feeling ever is when I lose my motivation at all. Especially when going out. Because, realizing that my clothes wont fit anymore and I start wearing my mamas clothes. I REALLY LOATH IT. but the thing is, i really want to change! But, its kinda hard, cos, whenever I see myself in front of the mirror, i am really depressed and I can't see good and pretty things about me. By the way, Im a cutter also. shhh. One day I wrote , " God, I want to die, I want to be with you, life on earth is so hard, I want to spend my life there now." But I realize that , killing my self is a sin and I know God is not happy if i would do that.

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Jul 29, 2009
 God can do the impossible!
by: Sarah

Dear sister,

I just felt led by God to reply to your message, because I felt so burdened and sad because of what you have been through.

And I believe God is saddened as well, to see you upset. He wants you to know that He loves you, and that whatever you cannot do with your own strength, God will provide you with, if you keep asking Him.

Matthew 7:8
For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.

Matthew 21:22
If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer."

Mark 11:24
Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.

I believe God is above all things, and He is Almighty, He is able to do miracles and the impossible in our lives. And He wants to use you for His Kingdom. He loves you very much, even if noone else loves you and tells you that you are beautiful, know that that is how God looks at you.

God created us to know Him. You have a purpose on this earth. You are made for God and to worship and love Him. I pray that God will reveal Himself to you, and that He will bring godly friends around you, who will love you for who you are, and encourage you and walk with you each day, to help you become healthier and grow in confidence.

Matthew 19:26
Jesus looked at them and said, "With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible."

Surround yourself with people who really love you and care for you. People who constantly put you down will only hurt you more, and you shouldn't hang around them now when you are emotionally weak. Spend more time with God, reading His word, hearing His word, and with godly people who will help you in your walk with God. I believe God has a plan for you, and He wants to bring you out of your misery so that you can enjoy every part of life that He has planned for you.

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

I pray that you will become even more prayerful and keep seeking God first in everything that you do. I pray for God to provide help to you right now as I type this.

In Jesus' mighty name I pray, Amen.

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