You Feel

by Melissa
(Boston,MA,USA)

When you feel the slightest Happiness,

Fate always finds its way to destroy it.
Maybe in your first life you did something horrific and karma bit you back in the butt.
Is there another way for you to redeem your past life?

There has to be way to get past these tormenting feelings and anxiety
When you keep thinking what’s the hope of it
What’s the point of staying here
When you only feel lonely, helpless
Knowing in yourself no one cares
You pretend to be like others so you can feel a little normal
A little accepted in this community
But in the end people will forget about you, not Think twice

On the days you feel decent enough
You hang with people, laugh, gossip, be as mean as you want without feeling down, but if someone says the tiniest thing that you usually wouldn’t care about, it upsets you and you know theres no other way besides keeping it deep down inside your broken soul and wait till it fills up till you explode or let it drip open through your wounds that you created.
it doesn’t get rid of anything but it quiets it down. you cry and beg god take this pain away, help me though this.
The feel of the cut is like a painkiller
It helps block the itchy spot for a little while
But it always finds its way back home.
If you were brave enough you would make it all disappear for good.
Just not ready to be free now
you'll have to suffer a bit longer.